Poetry or whatever

Feelings

It's not that I don't feel enough
The burden is I feel too much
Noticing any little change in your tone, your mood
Wait! Did I do something to upset you?
It must have been me, It's always me
Now I can't stop the thoughts from coming
Do something quick! Pull them in
No push them away! On no, not again
Self-sabotage. You don't deserve to be happy
Self-sabotage. You don't deserve to be free
It's time to shut down, you don't need to be found 
It's okay, you're safe now

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Who am I? That’s a good question. Something I’m still trying to figure out. I’m a single mom of two amazing, free spirited kids. But a mother is not all that I am. That I do know. I was born and raised in Alabama but now live in Canada where I feel like I’m really supposed to be. I find my passion in being creative. Whether it’s something I make, write, draw or a picture I take. That creative part of me has always been my therapy. I’m a free spirited, wild at heart, rebel (so I’ve been told) with an empath’s soul. I’m also a sexual abuse survivor with PTSD and social anxiety. I’m broken and damaged but a total bada** finding my way to healing. This blog started out as a way to track my journey to a healthier life. But along the way I discovered I would never truly be whole if I didn’t face the demons of my past. So I finally faced my past abuse which set me down a path I never imagined. I don’t know where this journey will take me or how this blog will evolve. But I do know life has been doing a good job of working itself out and I’m just trying to stay out of the way and see where it leads me. There’s been so much darkness in my life but maybe along the way I’ll also find some light. Thank you for joining me on my journey Amber View all posts by Whole New Start

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