I go through my day
With my back straight
I smile and I laugh
When I'm supposed to
I'll act strong and steady
This facade always ready
Fire in my eyes
A purposeful stride
Making sure you don't see
What's going on underneath
The moments I can't breathe
And when my heart is racing
I bet I look calm, confident even
Oh but if only you knew what I was thinking
Or how I try to slow my heartbeat
So I can keep the blush from my cheeks
I'm sorry for when I avoid your eyes
And run away at your sight
Just trying my best at hiding
I'm more afraid of you than you are of me
Whole New Start
Who am I?
That’s a good question. Something I’m still trying to figure out.
I’m a single mom of two amazing, free spirited kids. But a mother is not all that I am. That I do know.
I was born and raised in Alabama but now live in Canada where I feel like I’m really supposed to be.
I find my passion in being creative. Whether it’s something I make, write, draw or a picture I take. That creative part of me has always been my therapy.
I’m a free spirited, wild at heart, rebel (so I’ve been told) with an empath’s soul.
I’m also a sexual abuse survivor with PTSD and social anxiety.
I’m broken and damaged but a total bada** finding my way to healing.
This blog started out as a way to track my journey to a healthier life. But along the way I discovered I would never truly be whole if I didn’t face the demons of my past. So I finally faced my past abuse which set me down a path I never imagined.
I don’t know where this journey will take me or how this blog will evolve. But I do know life has been doing a good job of working itself out and I’m just trying to stay out of the way and see where it leads me. There’s been so much darkness in my life but maybe along the way I’ll also find some light.
Thank you for joining me on my journey
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